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@thewindupbirdchronicles I don’t understand your answer and I don’t think you are being malicious so I won’t pick parts of it that I assume to, because it would a poverty of whatever it is you are trying to convey.

@Yisrael I was trying to see the differences with giving an open heart and mind. So tell me what those authors would teach?

@thewindupbirdchronicles I have been on this road since I was 5. I’m 46 now. People told me I was dark. I believed them, but without that lie I wouldn’t have began a life long search for the truth. The draw back about the truth is that once you find it you have the burden of living it.
I passed through all the nations trying to understand what and who I am. I have met Enochian Witches, Fae Witches, Norse & Druid Withes. I have practiced the Oglala medicine wheel, the medicines and the guides and totems. I searched through Alchemy and even the Dahomey narrative of Vodun and suffered the lies of its halfbreeds and the big snake adored as gods.
It wasn’t until I found out that I was Jewish that everyone was explained for me. The encounters with various personifications of energies people give names, personalities and pseudo being to. I understand the plight of the Cuckoo bird laying its egg in another’s nest.
I understood low born, mid born and high born half breeds. Most of all I got some of my fragmented memory back. Knowledge was a vacuum. Faith was the only way to subjugate my brother, his consort and the innumerable children I have had with her that surround me like a cyclone of darkness. The same darkness that people thought was me for so many decades, but I am still in here and my dad and my brothers are still here for me even to this day.

@thewindupbirdchronicles They are things relative to my home and ancestry. An open heart is something that you have to be astute in protecting, feeding and cultivating because the only way it works is through vulnerability and that merits its own dangers. A danger of your experiences creating a separation between your heart and mind and the heart was intended to guide and lead and power the mind. That separation is where I am at and I don’t know how to mend it. For you Torath Moshe may not serve you. These are things of my spiritual identity, The challenge is unearthing yours and facing the truth and living it and not letting the burden of it live you.

@Yisrael I might know from a very different perspective.

@Yisrael Some would call an existential crisis, using the flora and fuana as symbols in how we see. It's hard to find balance, and sometimes it hurts more it comes when we don't ask, and then is no longer there when we ask.

@thewindupbirdchronicles power without perception is meaningless. It is destruction. An existential crisis? Not knowing what you are, who you are where you are from…why you are here and all these are what constitutes an existential crisis in my experience. Using flora and fauna in how you see are things of Earth based religions. Balance is inherently difficult to find because most people are lost to themselves even as they are born in the midst of it and who they are has no value to some. Balance always hurts for both human and divine, It is not the Western idea. Transmutation hurts, but what hurts more is realizing what you have truly loss at the precipice of that change. Being born hurts but you exhale chaos and inhale order. You are the balance. You create institutions of imbalance along the way in life. So your fight becomes a war with many battles. The balance is always there you were born of it. The scotoma of believing it’s not there is just institutions of imbalance we adopt and we stay in our own way. Some of us.

@Yisrael It's a different language, but one I do understand. Transmutations. In Canada, I am not found in many wars, safe, but the stories I hear from Indigenous people given scant respect, and how they are hurt from not being seen. I worry, that echoes what is going on between Isreal and Palestine, no one really wants the war outside politicians, and all there is a world of hurt.

@thewindupbirdchronicles I would rather not be seen than to have no people, no family, no culture and no friends and no no physical companionship. I would rather not be seen than to have mental illness, diseases and 3rd world poverty right here on American soil. I would rather not be seen than to live powerless on a street ruled by organized crime with no police response and everyday your life is in very real danger. Life is hard it is the reality. Those Palestinians are Jews. Israelis are Jews. Throughout the Bible most of the conflicts you read about are between immediate and distant family. It was and is seldom between real strangers. Everything is happening for the reasons that it is. Israel and its people no more belong to themselves than Palestine and its people do. So we have to wait and the balance has to rectify itself the way everything else does in the cycle of life.