Contemplation [Spirituality & Religion]

I am not going to lie, I have been struggling these past few weeks with studying the word of the almighty. I love him, but I noticed I was going easy on myself giving excuses to myself: God forgives me, he's merciful. However I do not feel close To Him. We have 24 hours in a day. How is it possible that we can spend 16 hours on the phone, computer watching TV, video games, gossiping, thinking about nonsense, yet not even give 1 hour to him? Of course I do daily prayer but it's not the same as constantly thinking about him and meditating on his word. My soul needs this food and it's not OK that I've been slacking.