I Had a Spiritual Awakening

i recently made a post about a theory i have on god, tarot, religion and the subconscious mind. ill post that below (should be in red if ive done it right) for context if you want to check it out becuase its part of this experience im about to describe.

so with that theory in mind, i set out on a quest to test it, an experiment on my self and my mind to see what happened. What happened was quite surreal and it was where i truely found my self. it still has residual effects to this day.

so heres what i did. rather than think logically and make descisions based solely upon thought. i used a feeling, i put my life in total control of this feeling. that feeling was, the tingling you get down your spine when youre exited about somthing. like the chills, your hair stands up on your arms. the technicl term for this feeling is ASMR and its as yet unexplained by science.
my concious mind became nothing but a tool for this feeling to tell me exactly what it wanted me to do. its kicking in now as i write this post. so some part of me want me to share this with other people. untill now ive kept it to my self because it sounds kind of nuts and its extremely personal.
so choices in my life became controled by this feeling. i was offered a job at the time. i didnt get the feeling. i didnt take the job. i threw out some other options to the feeling. it told me to go to the woods instead that day.
id type somthing random into youtube just a word. id say random words in my head when the feeling kicked in, id use that word and id watch videos on the subject. id look down the side at the suggested videos. if the feeling kicked in as i read the title id watch that video. the more i put my trust into that feeling, the stronger it became. making simple descision about what do do at any momennt was euphoric, orgasmic even at times, deciding how to reply to someones message one day almost sent me into convulsions. thorough doing this i found out who i was as a person. i found out my passion in life. my true will as the occultists say.
stopping the experiment after a few months of living like this was like letting go of an addiction. doing this rationally again was like the worst hangover youve ever had.
everything in moderation.

so, thats my story. hope you enjoyed it.


I think if there is a god, he/she/it (I'll refer to god as "it" from now on. I don't mean any offence) is your subconscious mind, when you do something good, it rewards you with endorphins etc. When you do bad, it judges you, it makes you feel guilt. Soldiers seeing the faces of the people they've killed etc.

How does this relate to religion and tarot?

Religious people find comfort in their faith fair enough, I'm not gonna get into that. They get life advice from the bible. You hear people say "I can open the bible at a random page and take something away from it. Something relating to their life.

In tarot. Actual tarot. Not Mumbo jumbo. People also take away life lessons. They turn cards randomly that have a meaning and take away a lesson from that.

What do I think is actually happening here?

I think people are giving "god" a chance to talk to them. By god, I mean their subconscious mind.

Your brain picks up a rediculous amount of information that your conscious mind can't handle. It just proscesses in the background.

How does this relate to religion and tarot?

Firstly religion. Devout people read the bible so much that they know it off by heart. They know every page like the back of their hand.
Seemingly randomly they flick through the pages, with a question about their life to god in their head. Subconsciously they know exactly what is on each page and exactly what that page feels like. That page has the answer to their question.

Same with tarot. The cards have meaning to the person, they are giving their subconscious mind a chance to guide them. By trusting this they are unlocking the full power of their brain. It's intuition.

Learn to trust it. Let it guide you. It knows what is best.