my views on God [Spirituality & Religion]

sometimes I find myself wondering if God is truly as he claims. he is self righteous, prideful and at times vengeful. the devil is forward with his evil's so I can reject him outright. I have to wait till the day I die and stand before him myself, both in judgment of one another. first I would hear his reason's and only then will I decide once and for all if he is truly a divine being or the greatest monster I have ever known.