Dance in the rain?

To say I've always been different is an understatement. The persistent and unfailing hope I have for life is unique to me, or at least a rare trait.

I've always carried a small seed of hope in my heart, lighting my way through life. As a child, growing up in a broken home with an unloving father, hoping for a better tomorrow seemed unattainable. Yet, my hope sustained me, shielding me from the harsh darkness and depravity of the world around me. I never saw the worst and always imagined and expected the best in every person and situation.

When disappointment inevitably struck, I cried, raged, and questioned myself. Why can't I be indifferent like everyone else? Why do I always expect the best? When will I learn? Pain sharpens our reality like a sword, wielded in every circumstance. For me, it only strengthened my resolve to uncover the root of my disappointment, weed it out, and destroy it.

After years of stumbling, falling, taking deep breaths, and getting back up, my hope has become the rock upon which I build my life. Life has been wild, a roller coaster of colors, shades of darkness, and unimaginable emotional and physical pain. Yet, I'm not only still standing but standing with a smile and the expectation that today is a good day and tomorrow will be even better.

I've never been special in the way others might consider special, but I am special because I'm a seer. I can see the light, the brightness, the goodness in every person, even those who pass me by, cause me pain, or consider me just a face in the crowd.

Yes, life is wild, and I love it. I never would have imagined it would lead me down this path. Although I don't know where it will take me next, the excitement within me builds and strengthens every day. Life brings light into my soul and an unmatched expectancy. Despite the metaphorical storms that occasionally pass through, I have learned, in the most wonderful way, to dance in the rain.

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Redstar · 36-40, M

There are plenty of people who see good in others, including the people they don't know or have done really bad things.

ChristinaNks

@Redstar I'm glad there are plenty of people around you who do. I'm experiencing and there are studies being done that people not only lack care and concern for others, but now have become ruder and more closed off since the shut downs. Perhaps they can 'see' good but it's not reached their hearts.

Redstar · 36-40, M

@ChristinaNks I wasn't talking about people around me. All I said was that there are plenty of people who see good in others.. it has nothing to do with who I know.
The fact that is you are acting like you're special because you can see the good in others and even labeled yourself as a seer because of it. But in reality, plenty of people are like you in that regard.

The effect on people due to lock down is a whole different topic.
But there is an over-concern for other people now. People censoring themselves and behaving differently because of what other people might think. Which usually stems from them being afraid of losing ad revenue tr subscribers, or not gaining new ones. People are far more likely to be fake-kind these days.

ChristinaNks

@Redstar Hmm, well if they're not around you then how do you know there are plenty of people who see good in others. It has everything to do with with who you know, if you don't know them, you certainly have no authority on the matter and your opinion holds no weight.
I'm not acting, I am special, and that's not a self prescribed label.

I question if you have the ability to understand the difference between reality and perception. Lacking care and concern for others is a direct correlation to the topic of my post regardless of you wanting to change it to fit your narrative.

If the state of the world is a result of over-concern for other people than I would again questions your ability to discern the difference between reality and perception.