So now I think I understand Jesus.

But the Bible is wrong. The way it is taught us wrong. You need to strip out the mythology of the birth, cut out the midrash, and you need to discount the resurrection and just focus on the non apocalyptic teachings. He was a mystic that realized that we are all one with God and one with each other. Heaven is not a monarchy. Jesus was not a freak. It is all very simple and I don't think there is anything to be saved from. I finally feel at peace and awake.