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Beatbox34 · 31-35, M
I believe he exists. I just felt that he watched me suffer in pain so I chose to believe that he hates me.
Silverwings · 61-69, F
@Beatbox34 I think that the pain you are speaking of is emotional and not physical, am i right? Either way, I assure you he does not hate you. He died that you may live, why would you think otherwise? hint- the enemy of your soul is influncing your thinking. There is no hate in God, he is all love, but our enemy on the other hand is all hate and no love, please understand which one is in charge.
Beatbox34 · 31-35, M
@Silverwings I completely understand but I just wish a lot could have been prevented you know
Silverwings · 61-69, F
@Beatbox34 what could have been prevented?
Beatbox34 · 31-35, M
@Silverwings A lot in my life. I mean like a certain person from burning my mom and us.
Silverwings · 61-69, F
@Beatbox34 by burning i think you mean doing you wrong? And if so what do you blame God for that for?
Beatbox34 · 31-35, M
@Silverwings By Burning, you could say that. I mean yes my father did and god isn't to blame for that. But my dad did so much damage to us emotionally and financially. I myself have struggled to make it right for the past 9 years and i haven't been able to do so. It just seems bleak at the end. I try begging him and yet it feels silent.
I remember crying everyday in church asking for his help to get it through. I saw no difference yet everyone who screwed us over got better. I'm not saying he did it but I wish he helped us. My mother still cries to him in prayer but I don't know what to say.
I remember crying everyday in church asking for his help to get it through. I saw no difference yet everyone who screwed us over got better. I'm not saying he did it but I wish he helped us. My mother still cries to him in prayer but I don't know what to say.
Silverwings · 61-69, F
@Beatbox34 Ok I am beginging to understand a little better, we often times see God the same way we see our human fathers, but that is so wrong, he is the ultimate good father. You do understand that God hates evil, and it is not his will for others to be mistreated. You beg your human father? or your heavenly father?
Beatbox34 · 31-35, M
@Silverwings I have never begged my human father. He's not worth our time and he's no more. I have never begged god asking for money or all the pleasures in life. Instead I have asked him to give us peace, a solution for the problems and a way to carry on with the pain.
I have never said he did us harm but I just feel he is silent. A lot of people have done us harm and get away. I never asked for revenge and I never wanted that but I do deserve what I worked for.
Let's take this instance. I was employed a year ago by my employer. I went through a terrible breakup in which my ex chose to contact me and push me into further depression. But I was dealing with so much last year and I worked to get the job. I was pushed to the sidelines because of my defected color vision. The employer was at fault and I still didn't get recruited when it's almost a year now. I went for something different. We prayed everyday to him and I was harassed for over a year by the employer and the hospital. This is what makes me feel sick that I can't catch a break and that just demotivates me more depriving my mental health altogether. Again I still prayed every night but I don't see a solution to anything.
I have never said he did us harm but I just feel he is silent. A lot of people have done us harm and get away. I never asked for revenge and I never wanted that but I do deserve what I worked for.
Let's take this instance. I was employed a year ago by my employer. I went through a terrible breakup in which my ex chose to contact me and push me into further depression. But I was dealing with so much last year and I worked to get the job. I was pushed to the sidelines because of my defected color vision. The employer was at fault and I still didn't get recruited when it's almost a year now. I went for something different. We prayed everyday to him and I was harassed for over a year by the employer and the hospital. This is what makes me feel sick that I can't catch a break and that just demotivates me more depriving my mental health altogether. Again I still prayed every night but I don't see a solution to anything.