I find the christianity teachings can be very pain cause if you fall in life which i certainly do , you could be very harsh on yourself [Spirituality & Religion]

I love the teachings but it's a way too painful . At times I can tend to turn to buddhism cause I can get less pain from it , like mindfulness and all of that but when I do practice buddhism it brings up a lot of overwhelming emotions , very raw emotions. Then when doing it my soul can get very empty . Also I practice praying the rosary and that's a powerful prayer .
So I'm kind scared and confused on which path to go .
Had anyone similar situations about there beliefs?