Is it good or bad to suffer from being slain in the spirit and suffering from the wounds of Christ in our body? [Spirituality & Religion]

To pick up our Cross and follow Him facing our world and demons fighting to be the salt of the world preserving a broken relationship until you collapse by being slain in the spirit feeling the deepest peace until you hear Angels singing and suffer from stigmata ( the wounds of Christ within our hands and feet) or are we responsible for killing Jesus within us? Even though there is healings across the land! Is it good or bad right or wrong can only true Christians answer please.