Wht did u think happened? [Spirituality & Religion]

So I believe in god and I don’t! It’s confusing but I should have told u this sooner also I remember most of my dreams this one I’ll remember for loooong time ..At around December 25 maybe.. it was 2017 I had a dream that I held Jesus after he died on the cross and he was all bloody but I didn’t care! I remember he had his arm wrapped around me and I said something like “your my lord and savior!” Then I woke up.. as I woke up I felt weird but I felt like i don’t know peaceful and/or good it was weird 😬😳 what do you think?!