Why did God treat me like nothing? [Spirituality & Religion]

My husband is an a-hole. he wouldn't let us have children. i have been raped and beaten on many occasions by other people including family members. my husband and i don't have sex or rape. i have been suicidal since i was 10 and i have never had friends or family or anyone. i am the nicest sweetest person i know. i think i am ready to go now.

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whowasthatmaskedman · 70-79, M

Sadly "God" has a number of get out of Jail free cards to play for all occasions.. In this case its "The Lord helps those who help themselves." If there is an up side here, it is that you owe nothing to anyone, except possibly yourself, as a person. I suggest you make that move and strike out on your own.. If you have survived so far then I suggest you are far more resilient than you know and just removing the immediate load and being away from the sources of pain may be a relief in itself.. What do you have to lose by finding out?

LILY61

@whowasthatmaskedman you make a good point. but i have lost all my resiliency in the past twenty years with my husband. i think that i stayed around because i always found something else to keep me going, but that is all gone now.

whowasthatmaskedman · 70-79, M

Then you should try living just for yourself and recharge.@LILY61

LILY61

@whowasthatmaskedman i have been doing that my whole life and there is no place left for me to recharge