Why did God treat me like nothing? [Spirituality & Religion]

My husband is an a-hole. he wouldn't let us have children. i have been raped and beaten on many occasions by other people including family members. my husband and i don't have sex or rape. i have been suicidal since i was 10 and i have never had friends or family or anyone. i am the nicest sweetest person i know. i think i am ready to go now.

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Mamapolo2016 · F

Which cult?

LILY61

@Mamapolo2016 in Cincinnati, it started a long time ago. i know that my "parents" were in it...the police...judges...etc...the kids in my age range made it into something worse than you could ever imagine. rape, murder, destruction. all i did was refuse to join in to the horrors and i became public enemy number one. i know this sounds like a movie, but i honestly think that is where they got it from

Mamapolo2016 · F

@LILY61 There is plenty of bad stuff. There are ways to help you, but you have to want help. Nobody can or should force you into any more things you don't want to do.

LILY61

@Mamapolo2016 there is no one to help me.

Mamapolo2016 · F

@LILY61 If you are persuaded of that, I don't know how to convince you there is, although I know you are wrong.

I can't give you any more information unless you give me more so I can gather information and figure out the best way to help.

So we're at a stand off. Again I encourage you to let me know when you are ready. He does not deserve to steal one more instant of your life.

I'll be here when you decide.