I Want to Meet More Spiritual People

Ever since I was brought into this world, I noticed that I was always isolated or left out from girls and also boys at school. I had no friends growing up and I was always the black sheep of the family aka the Creative one whereas everyone else was the calculating one using their right brain more. I was always bullied and made fun of everywhere I went-- from my cousin's to school to grocery stores. This all escalated to middle school and high school. It also occurred a lot in college as well. To this day, it still goes on wherever I work the jobs in my field and it seems these days, women want to fight me and tear me apart whereas men are ok with me energetically. I'm not sure why this all happens to me or if it's my energy and light since I was born. I always had problems with a majority of women and I can't understand why. Over the recent years, there have been women who stopped being friends with me without no reason at all and I get shocked that it's jealousy after confrontation. I'm not trying to be shallow and vain either, but again this has been going on since birth and I can't understand why spiritually. Please be sensitive with my post as this is personal and confusing for me because I can't understand to this day why I've always been left out everywhere I go and why women have such an issue with me energetically. If anyone can help me with an explanation from a spiritual level, please comment below or PM me. Thanks so much.