I Want to Meet More Spiritual People

Ever since I was brought into this world, I noticed that I was always isolated or left out from girls and also boys at school. I had no friends growing up and I was always the black sheep of the family aka the Creative one whereas everyone else was the calculating one using their right brain more. I was always bullied and made fun of everywhere I went-- from my cousin's to school to grocery stores. This all escalated to middle school and high school. It also occurred a lot in college as well. To this day, it still goes on wherever I work the jobs in my field and it seems these days, women want to fight me and tear me apart whereas men are ok with me energetically. I'm not sure why this all happens to me or if it's my energy and light since I was born. I always had problems with a majority of women and I can't understand why. Over the recent years, there have been women who stopped being friends with me without no reason at all and I get shocked that it's jealousy after confrontation. I'm not trying to be shallow and vain either, but again this has been going on since birth and I can't understand why spiritually. Please be sensitive with my post as this is personal and confusing for me because I can't understand to this day why I've always been left out everywhere I go and why women have such an issue with me energetically. If anyone can help me with an explanation from a spiritual level, please comment below or PM me. Thanks so much.

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JoanieNewHampshire · T

😪I'm so sorry that you have felt left out of the world. I kinda feel the same why (in that I'm trans) so most alienate themselves, but I don't give up. I am hopelessly relentless with my positivity and wonderment. What helps is being in an area where there are others who aren't as stuck up with conformity and convention. I find artists of all types have a much better understanding and aren't so pragmatic. But when given a chance even those people who I thought would dislike me or fear me, have turned out to be my best alie. You need to seek those who share your values and opinion, people who are progressive in thought and act.

Cat05 · 36-40, F

@JoanieNewHampshire I'm so glad that you're able to find artists that have a better understanding around you. That's so beautiful and nice to hear. Thank you for your kind and encouraging words and advice. I guess if it is meant to be for me to find those who share my values and opinions as it is the same for them, it will be meant to be. <3

JoanieNewHampshire · T

It can only be if you do. And by that I mean make an effort. Nothing in our life changes except for the seasons, while waiting for change@Cat05

JoanieNewHampshire · T

And btw, that you for the friend request!

Cat05 · 36-40, F

So true- I actually have made efforts with others, but no return at all. Maybe it's not meant to be for now, but possibly sometime in this life. And thank you for your friend request! :)

JoanieNewHampshire · T

@Cat05 you're welcome! I think I'm a kind person and I try to have a good nature especially when meeting new friends. I keep a positive attitude even if the friend turns foe, or we just can't see eye to eye. We can't get along with every ego out there. What I have noticed is that some people (a lot) are in their own world doing what they enjoy and not paying a lot of attention to others, even if they are "friends" managing that kind of person begins with your expectations. Very often some people won't live up to your expectations. That's ok, it's thier way. Finding what you like and have passion for is key to liking who you are as a person. The rest will fall into place after that.