I Want to Meet More Spiritual People

Ever since I was brought into this world, I noticed that I was always isolated or left out from girls and also boys at school. I had no friends growing up and I was always the black sheep of the family aka the Creative one whereas everyone else was the calculating one using their right brain more. I was always bullied and made fun of everywhere I went-- from my cousin's to school to grocery stores. This all escalated to middle school and high school. It also occurred a lot in college as well. To this day, it still goes on wherever I work the jobs in my field and it seems these days, women want to fight me and tear me apart whereas men are ok with me energetically. I'm not sure why this all happens to me or if it's my energy and light since I was born. I always had problems with a majority of women and I can't understand why. Over the recent years, there have been women who stopped being friends with me without no reason at all and I get shocked that it's jealousy after confrontation. I'm not trying to be shallow and vain either, but again this has been going on since birth and I can't understand why spiritually. Please be sensitive with my post as this is personal and confusing for me because I can't understand to this day why I've always been left out everywhere I go and why women have such an issue with me energetically. If anyone can help me with an explanation from a spiritual level, please comment below or PM me. Thanks so much.

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NeuroticByNature · 41-45, F

Ive recently written a woman off in real life because she goes out of her way to pick at other women to make thrm jealous. She did it to me and I watched her do it to others. I think shes the jealous one really. That being said I dont have the energy for other women myself. In general I avoid people.

Cat05 · 36-40, F

@NeuroticByNature I avoid people too and I tend to be alone a lot of the times because of many traumatic events especially a recent event. She sounds like an energy vampire where she drains and feeds off of other innocent women around her including you. I'm so sorry that you had to go through that. I recently had to part my ways with a friend that would bring me down constantly about my career and manipulatively mention my dating life from the past out of no where. I finally had to confront her nicely and assertively. At first, she was in denial, and then it came down to admitting that she was jealous of a balance in my life and that apparently, I am secure with myself. When really, learning these life and karmic lessons, we are all not 100% confident and we are all somehow insecure and hurting inside. No one is perfect and we all tend to hide our hurt and vulnerability with ego and pride.

Cat05 · 36-40, F

P.S. My advice to you is this could be a life lesson for you to realize that unfortunately, there are people like her who will hurt others out of their own selfish, terrible, and insecure intentions. Maybe to be more assertive when it comes down to that and if you did confront her and was assertive, you did a job well done to put a stop to it. :)

NeuroticByNature · 41-45, F

@Cat05 thanks for the advice. Im nonconfrontational usually and she is so underhanded about it that she is pretty quick to call others jealous. I wont feed her need for trouble. Ill pull away. I dont really need friends that much.

Cat05 · 36-40, F

@NeuroticByNature I think and feel that she says others are just "jealous" is because it's her defense mechanism. Yes- it's best to pull away from someone like that. Have you ever read Assertiveness for Earth Angels by Doreen Virtue? I've been reading it and it shows ways of being assertive (not necessarily aggressive, but still be kind and defend and protect yourself). It's really good so far and has helped me find ways of being assertive with others when they either try to take advantage or find ways to be cruel to you.

NeuroticByNature · 41-45, F

@Cat05 it sounds good. I may look for it.