Im sorry. I typed out paragraphs and deleted it because it has been said before. I'm just sorry. I don't know if i'm being selfish or if I understand. Maybe nothing is about me anymore. I hope not. I meant what I said. I did not expect you to be around. I'd have been ok. But you were and suddenly you're not and I notice. It's not unnoticed. I never meant to take anything away from you. I don't know what I hoped for. This isn't it.