I Cant Trust Anymore

I cannot trust him anymore. All this time I keep telling myself that he will change. That I have to keep the family intact for the sake of the children. But how can I keep my family whole when I'm breaking into pieces?

Why do you have to do it over and over again? Do you want to prove to me you are better? That I will not be able to live without you? Well guess what,I can live without you but I'm staying not because of you but because of the kids.

I want to keep my family together but I'm already losing myself in the process. And I feel that if I continue like this, nothing will be left to me. I don't want to reach the point when I myself no longer care about self worth and self respect.