I Was Betrayed By People I Thought I Could Trust

I was stupid back then. I trusted someone I met online... How stupid that was. I know. I'm aware of that now. But idk... I just felt like I could trust him... He seemed real and genuine... He told me he loved me and for a sec I almost believed him... Luckily I didn't say I felt the same way bc I didn't, but I really thought he could be the person I could fall in love with for the first time ever in my life... He broke my heart, bc he lied to me, he made me feel guilty, he betrayed me... Haha after I discovered the truth, I didn't feel guilty anymore and all I felt for him disappeared... It hurt, but I didn't hurt as much as it did before... Bc I had felt something for someone who didn't exist, for someone who just existed in my mind.


It still hurts bc I was stupid not much too long ago. Probably I'm still stupid. Idk. The last time we talked was two weeks ago... And I still miss not him, but the idea of him... I still miss having someone who wanted me... I still miss someone I could talk to for hours... I still miss having someone I could talk to till falling asleep... I still miss having that someone who made me believe that falling in love was something possible to happen to me... I miss the idea of him bc that idea of him made me experience and try things I had never experienced and tried before.


Obviously I'm not trying online dating anymore.... And dating in general in a very long time (and ofc that's not happening anyways bc I haven't done that so far in real life and online, lol whatever)