I don’t know

I’ve always been alone and more precisely different than others my age idk why I’ve just always been and felt that way. so to make up for that I always gave 1000% of me to those who showed me kindness, but it seems like it was for nothing I gave them everything and all of me but got nothing in return not that I wanted it but I just wanted a friend I could trust and that would stay by my side like I would theirs