Just a little rant about my marriage parntsr

To begin this rant is not to say anything bad about my wife, I love her so much but I told her I wanted a little drink, not to get drunk or buzz. I just wanted to try a wine I haven't tried and in my past living with her mother I couldn't drink and she always made me feel awful about it and I started having severe panic attacks but right now we are in a good situation so I decided to try a little glass of wine and everything was good. Then randomly my wife decided to talk about financial situation because our toddler is turning 3 in a week. I told her I didn't want to talk about that right now, that I just had a wine glass and I will be okay to talk about it in a little bit but she kept pushing me and I was just trying to calm her down so I wouldn't have a panic attack because those are horrible but she got really frustrated so I tried hugging her but that wasn't working so I thought I could give her some space so I did then she started to throw things while I was our of the room so I rushed into the room to see if our child is okay, but my wife glared at me and is laying down now. All I wanted was time to talk about it. I told her I couldn't talk about it. But right now I'm shaking and crying. She said it was okay for me to have some wine and nothing will happen but just because I didn't want to talk, she's mad at me. Yes I'm also thinking of marriage therapy but she doesn't want to . I'm just in a difficult position