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No matter what happens to me, yet still more mind-blowing things happen. At times I wonder if I'll ever regain sanity. It's turned out to be like a Star Wars saga again these days. I keep saying "follow the light" and "use the force" to myself, but each time things just fall on top of me. I've suffered from paranoia and depression, and I wonder at times if things will get any better. There are moments of brightness, when I feel the sun against my skin again, but then the clouds re-appear again too. Yes, I know, perhaps you're now thinking that I'm already mad.