Just a Quick Rant

@Miram Thank you! 🙂

@Arithmoman You can talk to me about her any time you need to.

I will listen.

@Miram It's been so long since I've talked about her. I want to, but other people have moved on from it. There's quite a bit that I want to talk about. Everything reminds me of her, and I just want to tell someone. But you can almost hear the eyes rolling. They want me to move on. I think they're missing the whole point. I've accepted what happened, and I am trying to find someone to settle down with, but that doesn't mean I can never bring her up again. I would hope the next person I'm with is okay with that, but I'm not sure. Honestly, if I was in their shoes, it would probably bother me a bit. It's complicated. I don't know how to move on while carrying her with me. But I can't just let her go. Those memories and stories are all I have left.

@Miram I just got to thinking, if a police officer found that bag, he would probably dump all of it out. I really need to keep it at home.

@Arithmoman

You don't have to forget her or unlove her to allow someone else into your heart.

I lost my sister on 1997. I did not move on or stop grieving whereas everyone else don't talk of it. Like it never happened.

They cope differently. They grieve different.

And sometimes it feels so detaching and alone. Like you are left behind while everyone else took off.

There is absolutely nothing wrong with holding unto memories.

In my heart I know that it only proves genuine affection which would be something to value in a man.

Whoever dates you is lucky, you needn't change to be loved back.

@Arithmoman

Yes, I think you should buy beautiful home for the bag.

I keep my sister's things in a blue chest because blue was her favorite color.

@Miram It felt good to talk about that to you, and thank you for the kind words. I hope I find someone. I don't want to rush it, but I'm also worried about running out of time. I feel like I'm getting old pretty quickly.

I'm sorry to hear about your sister. My wife's favorite color was also blue. She went to University of Michigan, and she was the biggest fan. Everything was maize and blue.

Also, thank you for being so kind to me. You've been incredibly respectful to me on all my posts, and it means a lot. I hope you find a great guy, too. He will need to be phenomenal to be good enough for you. 🙂

@Arithmoman

She sounds amazing. Even so that she captured your heart.

You will find someone. You will.

You also are not running out of time. You are here so you can allow your wife's love to flow through you. There will be so many opportunities and so many ways you can do that <3