I Enjoy Meaningful Conversations
Before I start, I want to first mention before hand that this post may be a bit long cause I just have so much to say in relation to this group. A whole lot that has been on my mind lately, and I know I'll keep feeling more and more agitated if I don't release what's raging inside me.
Ok.. well, what I want to explain here may come off as venting/complaining. Least I know some will see it that way. However that's not where I'm here to do. I just want to be open and honest about my thoughts. That being said, what's on my mind is that I do very much enjoy meaningful conversations. Not just online, but in real life. In real life meaningful conversations that last for hours sounds like heaven to me. But not with just any type of person. I observe people every time I'm out,whether I'm at work or just out by myself doing my own thing. What I notice is how superficial people are in their conversation topics. Especially at work, most of the time I hear pointless gossip and I swear to god I can't stand that. I see no point in it what so ever. For once I'd love to come across some one who's not a brain washed gossip spewing zombie. I actually prefer to have deep one on one conversations since I'm introverted. But no one ever wants to seem to go deeper. It just saddens me and frustrates me. I honestly don't care about superficial conversations, hearing them makes my mind buzz with irritation and I just feel uptight and drained. I do have a big example from work. During my breaks I sit at a table and I'm mostly quiet while 2 people at the table around my age just talk about games and movies nonstop. The whole time I just sit there screaming internally. I just don't care about that stuff.. I don't care about games, or game characters or how much the person wants to beat the next level or how awesome they think all these games and movies are. Its just not deep enough for me. I want to go beyond all of that and indulge in conversations that are actually intriguing and worth the time. Travel experiences, personal experiences that have changed the person, their weaknesses, their passions, what makes them tick, how they see themselves. This is what I want to talk about. Not all the pointless mindless chatter I hear constantly. But I still patiently wait for some one to come along who will be able to understand what I've written here.
I'm done now.
Ok.. well, what I want to explain here may come off as venting/complaining. Least I know some will see it that way. However that's not where I'm here to do. I just want to be open and honest about my thoughts. That being said, what's on my mind is that I do very much enjoy meaningful conversations. Not just online, but in real life. In real life meaningful conversations that last for hours sounds like heaven to me. But not with just any type of person. I observe people every time I'm out,whether I'm at work or just out by myself doing my own thing. What I notice is how superficial people are in their conversation topics. Especially at work, most of the time I hear pointless gossip and I swear to god I can't stand that. I see no point in it what so ever. For once I'd love to come across some one who's not a brain washed gossip spewing zombie. I actually prefer to have deep one on one conversations since I'm introverted. But no one ever wants to seem to go deeper. It just saddens me and frustrates me. I honestly don't care about superficial conversations, hearing them makes my mind buzz with irritation and I just feel uptight and drained. I do have a big example from work. During my breaks I sit at a table and I'm mostly quiet while 2 people at the table around my age just talk about games and movies nonstop. The whole time I just sit there screaming internally. I just don't care about that stuff.. I don't care about games, or game characters or how much the person wants to beat the next level or how awesome they think all these games and movies are. Its just not deep enough for me. I want to go beyond all of that and indulge in conversations that are actually intriguing and worth the time. Travel experiences, personal experiences that have changed the person, their weaknesses, their passions, what makes them tick, how they see themselves. This is what I want to talk about. Not all the pointless mindless chatter I hear constantly. But I still patiently wait for some one to come along who will be able to understand what I've written here.
I'm done now.
31-35, F
