I'm Saying Don't Judge Me Until You've Walked In My Shoes
Yst was such a bad day for me anyways i'm not going to state which country i came from but here goes...
I graduated from a vocational school and had many experience working in retail and I had experience working as a floristry and in a security job. The pay for retail is not a lot (about $1k a month) and as the years gone by I developed an interest in another field and willing to work hard for it and knowing what I've gone thru over the years I feel like I wanted to have a change in career. My learning curve isn't the best and I would say growing up I am very slow in my learning sometimes I get jealous of those people who performed better in school and always gotten an A grade but one thing I've notice is that they never seem to be very friendly to those who are not from the same class as them or same level as them(I was only 7-12yrs old) I tried having a one on one convo with em but they shut me down before I could even say anything.
I wanted to get into a university and will be taking my A levels this year and I self-study all my subjects at home with the help of Google and Yt(I can't afford to go to school). Another thing about me is that all my life I never came from a prestigious school or from the best school or had best teachers or the best facilities or whatever and had always been in the last class and failed a lot in school and had nvr been really motivated to do a lot. I wish I knew about the importance of education at a younger age, esp about the pay difference, the scholarships and the amount of work u had to put up with. The background that I came from is that everyone never really seem to care much about all that anyways i'm not going to go deep into it.
I turned up for my physics class the other day, so basically the students who attended this class came from a prestigious school or "well known" school in the country. I would have to say for the first time in my life I'm like wow how the hell did I get from being zero to actually being seated next to all these people? but worse part is that this is a practical class I didnt expect it to be prep/exam class becuz I know in the website it never stated anything about prep/exam class. I feel shitty immediately because I have never seen this kind of questions before and never did any experiments before and also even If i know the names of all the instruments, the part where you are really actually doing it is like you feel so new to everything. The teacher were not very helpful at all(seem like the kind who are there for the sake of working and get their monthly salary attitude), I had to asked the guy seated in front of me to help me out.... Whatever that was tested didn't came out during the exams.Anyways the whole purpose of this whole session i assumed they would cover a summary of all the practical but no it didn't, they just gave you any random 3 and make you do in a one hour time phrase. Anyways I think the teachers must have heard me talking to the guy in front me about the my whole situation. THroughout the lesson I feel completely invisible to them, they didn't even make any eye contact with me at all just the students around and didn't look like they want to help me at all. And before leaving the classroom I thanked the teacher and said goodbye, they didn't even turn to me and gave me a reply.
I'm not going to go detail about how's my practical exam but all I can say is that, looking around, i'm saying to myself,lucky for everyone you got to go to school being able to score for this paper unlike me i cant perform for this paper at all and if i could have left the room i would have done so.
For the chem class, I attended yesterday i feel shitty thruout the entire class, I just wanted to walk out of that room but becuz i paid with my own hard earned money. I had to stay thruout the entire session and to bring back home all the papers. The teacher for this class were a little bit too much on me, I hated the fact that I paid so much money just so someone could lecture me about life infront of all these so called "elite students".. I feel completely humiliated and keep getting dirty looks from ppl in class becuz he bombarded me with all these qns like "have u done lab b4?' "is this your first time doing lab?" Question about my education level and background. What's the point of you asking me all these questions if you are going to walk away and didn't seem interested in helping me at all? and used words that I never heard of and he could have just be straight forward in everything that he needed to tell me. And also I cant be asking too much questions becuz they were other students in the room that I need to be mindful of.
Anyways wish me luck for my chem lab exam and i hope you all have a good day ahead.
I graduated from a vocational school and had many experience working in retail and I had experience working as a floristry and in a security job. The pay for retail is not a lot (about $1k a month) and as the years gone by I developed an interest in another field and willing to work hard for it and knowing what I've gone thru over the years I feel like I wanted to have a change in career. My learning curve isn't the best and I would say growing up I am very slow in my learning sometimes I get jealous of those people who performed better in school and always gotten an A grade but one thing I've notice is that they never seem to be very friendly to those who are not from the same class as them or same level as them(I was only 7-12yrs old) I tried having a one on one convo with em but they shut me down before I could even say anything.
I wanted to get into a university and will be taking my A levels this year and I self-study all my subjects at home with the help of Google and Yt(I can't afford to go to school). Another thing about me is that all my life I never came from a prestigious school or from the best school or had best teachers or the best facilities or whatever and had always been in the last class and failed a lot in school and had nvr been really motivated to do a lot. I wish I knew about the importance of education at a younger age, esp about the pay difference, the scholarships and the amount of work u had to put up with. The background that I came from is that everyone never really seem to care much about all that anyways i'm not going to go deep into it.
I turned up for my physics class the other day, so basically the students who attended this class came from a prestigious school or "well known" school in the country. I would have to say for the first time in my life I'm like wow how the hell did I get from being zero to actually being seated next to all these people? but worse part is that this is a practical class I didnt expect it to be prep/exam class becuz I know in the website it never stated anything about prep/exam class. I feel shitty immediately because I have never seen this kind of questions before and never did any experiments before and also even If i know the names of all the instruments, the part where you are really actually doing it is like you feel so new to everything. The teacher were not very helpful at all(seem like the kind who are there for the sake of working and get their monthly salary attitude), I had to asked the guy seated in front of me to help me out.... Whatever that was tested didn't came out during the exams.Anyways the whole purpose of this whole session i assumed they would cover a summary of all the practical but no it didn't, they just gave you any random 3 and make you do in a one hour time phrase. Anyways I think the teachers must have heard me talking to the guy in front me about the my whole situation. THroughout the lesson I feel completely invisible to them, they didn't even make any eye contact with me at all just the students around and didn't look like they want to help me at all. And before leaving the classroom I thanked the teacher and said goodbye, they didn't even turn to me and gave me a reply.
I'm not going to go detail about how's my practical exam but all I can say is that, looking around, i'm saying to myself,lucky for everyone you got to go to school being able to score for this paper unlike me i cant perform for this paper at all and if i could have left the room i would have done so.
For the chem class, I attended yesterday i feel shitty thruout the entire class, I just wanted to walk out of that room but becuz i paid with my own hard earned money. I had to stay thruout the entire session and to bring back home all the papers. The teacher for this class were a little bit too much on me, I hated the fact that I paid so much money just so someone could lecture me about life infront of all these so called "elite students".. I feel completely humiliated and keep getting dirty looks from ppl in class becuz he bombarded me with all these qns like "have u done lab b4?' "is this your first time doing lab?" Question about my education level and background. What's the point of you asking me all these questions if you are going to walk away and didn't seem interested in helping me at all? and used words that I never heard of and he could have just be straight forward in everything that he needed to tell me. And also I cant be asking too much questions becuz they were other students in the room that I need to be mindful of.
Anyways wish me luck for my chem lab exam and i hope you all have a good day ahead.
26-30, F
