I Fake Smile To Hide My Sadness

Denying I feel lonely makes no more sense than denying I feel hunger. It seems to me that the harder I try the harder I fall. I love being alone, but I hate being lonely.

I smile all the time so no one knows how sad and lonely I am inside. Some of us are just trying to get through the day without falling apart.

My silence is just another word for my alone pain.

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SW-User

a smile can hide so much. The eyes tell the truth, but if a person never lets anyone close enough to see, then their inner pain can go undetected for some time. Sometimes until it's too late. My hope is always that people who feel lonely , eventually get to the point where they stop hiding, and come out from behind the smile.

Madeleine · 41-45, F

It's hard.

SW-User

@Madeleine: Tell me about it. lol Literally....tell me. but seriously, I have first hand knowledge of this. Mrs. Diggler has been masking a lot of pain for many years. People who don't know her, and who have never looked into her eyes, don't realize that she's not always as happy as you might think. She hides, and for 21 years, I've been trying to pull her out of hiding. It's far from easy, but at least she drops the act for me now. That's what I'm here for.

Madeleine · 41-45, F

@Diggler: She's lucky to have you on her side.

SW-User

@Madeleine: that's kind of you to say, but I don't know if she feels lucky.lol

I'm a good listener though. Just sayin' . Sometimes, that's what it takes. It doesn't always matter who, it only matters that we have someone.....anyone to talk to.

Madeleine · 41-45, F

@Diggler: And that's exactly what I'm looking for.

SW-User

@Madeleine: I want to say they're out there, but I can't gaurantee that. What I do believe is that you will find that in yourself, and when you do, it will make it easier to find that quality in someone else.

I can be a friend. I can be a sounding board. That's all I can be, and if that's enough, bend my ear anytime you want.

Madeleine · 41-45, F

@Diggler: Thank you very much. You are very sweet.