I Fake Smile To Hide My Sadness
Most of times, I do smile, but not because I'm happy. It's like I don't want people around me to see me as a boring, depressing, careless man. I don't want to go down that road....again.
I sometimes be for real about being happy, but it's worse to pretend, in which it gets worse from there. I be positive around people for awhile, then be in a mood of nothing when I'm alone.
Basically, I pretend so that I can feel good about myself, but what good is there if I'm not being honest about my feelings? I'm still changing. If I can't express with words, then either writing or drawing can help. I'm not much of a talker.
I sometimes be for real about being happy, but it's worse to pretend, in which it gets worse from there. I be positive around people for awhile, then be in a mood of nothing when I'm alone.
Basically, I pretend so that I can feel good about myself, but what good is there if I'm not being honest about my feelings? I'm still changing. If I can't express with words, then either writing or drawing can help. I'm not much of a talker.
