I Fake Smile To Hide My Sadness

I'm basically in the point of my depression that I no longer feel anything, I'm just kinda on auto pilot. I laugh and smile and act normal but inside I'm just so far gone, I'm not sure how to bring myself out of this, I wish I could cry but my body won't allow me to. I feel so trapped. But it's okay I'll make it. It just sucks for the time being.

Edit: So I wrote this post after my ex boyfriend passed away. I was definitely still in shock. It's still a very sensitive topic for me but I appreciate all the people who commented and showed their support to me even when I never had disclosed the reasoning behind my sorrow.

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Thatonekid236 · 26-30, F

its not like im trying to not feel. Its more like my brain wont let me feel things.

PDXNative1986 · 36-40, MVIP

@Thatonekid236 Depression sucks. but it's usually a chemical imbalance- You should see a doctor.

It's not the same thing as being sad. it's like the inability to derive pleasure from things you normally enjoy.

You're probably experiencing serotonin issues.

I know it's hard to get out of bed when you're depressed but if you make the effort you'll probably feel better.

Thatonekid236 · 26-30, F

thank you i appreciate your reply!

leowander · M

@Thatonekid236 Sunshine in the morning can be helpful for serotonin.