I Smile Even Though I Am Sad

Mostly. Things are getting worse on my end as far as family goes. My mother is most definitely talking to other men and referring to my dad (her husband) as her "ex" in text messages. Really breaks my heart. I was always so used to being close to my family, now every time we talk it's like we get into huge arguments, and my mother tells me all kinds of hurtful things. Se claims she's going to move away because of me. That I've ruined her life when I've done nothing but love her. My dad never wants any part so he always goes for drives. I always ask if I can go and he always tells me no. My sister is just the cherry on top of all of this. I have no safe place to land...I want to run and run and run. One day....I'm just not going to come back. Let's see how they feel then.