Have you ever sat in the The seat of desolation, void of light,?

@spandexblue: Did you come to rue the dire event?

@puck61: My best friend killed herself. That put me in a long tailspin.

@spandexblue: Ouch. Someone shot my best friend in the head with a black powder rig in 04. It's a hell of thing to deal with emotional investment and mortality. I hope you pulled out okay..

I did eventually. I still have scars though. I hope you are doing better after such a massive loss. The one thing I did that seemed to help but sounds crazy is I talked to my friend like he was with me even after the loss. I did that for months. I still do on occasion just to clear my head. It actually helps. If nothing more it kept me from totally loosing it.