My dad just yelled at me badly but I deserved it

It’s embarrassing but I’m still learning important life lessons at the age of 28.

What’s important is that throughout the past 4 months I’ve began to realize that he’s not my enemy. He has some flaws of his own, mostly with his anger issues but nobody’s perfect, no surprise there.

I now realize he’s only tolerating me because he does in fact care about me and that’s helping me heal all kinds of things in my head. I feel pretty pathetic but it’s okay because I really should. Lying to myself wouldn’t get me anywhere. I have to face the truth.

I’m a complete screw-up.

But everything is gonna be fine. It may seem like I lost it all but I’ve gained some much needed wisdom throughout this battle with alcoholism.

I’ve discovered the value of vulnerability, friends, and humility.

I think those are foundational values that I lacked before. I was essentially trying to build my future on an unstable foundation. It’s no wonder why I kept falling all these years.

I’m gonna shake it off and get back on my horse. The really cool thing about my experiences is that now I’m able to shake pain off easier these days. I often find myself thinking: “I’ve been through worse, I can handle this”

This was merely a required setback. Everything’s gonna be okay.

And I’m so glad that my relationship with my dad is healing. It’s helping me face demons I never thought I could vanquish.