People with depression: Have you ever seen yourself committing suicide? In a daydream? Was it scary for you?

SW-User

In a daydream? No. Not really. I do remember wanting to just not wake up in the morning or feeling so inert, that I vowed to lay there and die. It's a horrible place to be in.

mdreader1982 · 41-45, M

It scared me, but I wasn't scared of dying. I was more scared that I would fail and end up permanently disabled. I already felt like a burden to everyone around me, I didn't want to screw it up and become an even larger one.

Mattybthebest · 36-40, M

That terrifies me@mdreader1982. I hadn’t considered it.

nonsensiclesnail · F

my thoughts of suicide were always a relief. Only scary in the method I was thinking about to working, so it helped me to solidify a plan that is pretty solid. And in my saner moments the simplicity of the plan and how easy it would be was both scary and a relief.

Miram · 31-35, F

I attempted it. It wasn't scary and I had nothing to lose.

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Mattybthebest · 36-40, M

Thank you for sharing @Miram

Miram · 31-35, F

@Mattybthebest Are you thinking about it?

Mattybthebest · 36-40, M

@Miram I see it on a regular basis. It’s sort a day dream but like I look down and I can see my shirt and it’s fine but I can also see it covered in blood

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Lostpoet · M

Scary no, when you're depressed death is what you want. Scary is the feeling that you'll be stuck in this hell until you grow old and die.

Mattybthebest · 36-40, M

Exactly @Lostpoet. Right!

Lostpoet · M

Hey man nobody wants to see you die, or to think about you wanting to die. If you're depressed seek help.

Skylove22 · 31-35, F

Kinda hard to seek help at times. I have no money to seek help and my anti depressants just don’t work enough@Lostpoet

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Lostpoet · M

@Skylove22
Clinics can't just kick you out on the street they have to refer you to someone.
I know it's clache but you should find the time to do the things you love.

And I know I shouldn't have written that last message, to just seek help. I meant to delete it.

I've gone untreated my whole life, mainly because I'm afraid that it's something worse than just depression. I feel like I've wasted so many years trying to deal with psychological problems, and the reality of things is that you can't make up for those days/weeks/months that you've locked yourself away. I've missed out on so many life situations starting from 12 to the present.

So my advice to anyone, especially those younger than meyself, just get help.

Skylove22 · 31-35, F

I have thought about it many times. And the scary part is that I’m not scared at all.

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