I like the anonymity

Drugs
Don’t know what the deal

I’m living a life where I’m happy but there are drugs

Everyone says don’t do it
But everyone
I mean everyone
Seems to be doing it
The taxi driver who looks like my uncle has a bit from us
The cleaner who is so normal
Nurturing personality brings her daughter to clean my house
Says
“I have a cheeky line every now and then”.
There seems to be two worlds
One where it’s absolute and no association whatsoever
And the other world
What I would expect to be drug addicts or homeless people
Actually they seem to be from all walks of life.

It is confusing because
I love this person
Yet
Logic screams in every way this relationship is a huge risk
Not only for heart break
But this time
For my actual life
I might die from a drug over dose or something

And this person has sort of become like an addiction
I can’t get rid of them
Or when I scream for them to leave their calm voice and loving words sooth my soul and immediately I forget the events leading up to my meltdown.

There are a very few routes where I can be be with him
And also be safe and away from drugs

And I think I’m playing with fire as somewhere in my brain I think I have what it takes
I deep down believe that there is hope
For him
For me
And that we will beat this and our love will succeed
He is madly in love
I am madly in love
And maybe there is a very small one in s million chance that this maybe
Amazing

Nihiless

You're correct, there are people from all walks of life that use drugs. I use caffeine everyday (also a drug) but refrain from illegal drugs (in my country) not because they're illegal but because I don't like mixed/hallucinogenic drugs. I've experimented with them in the past, but they freaked me out and I hated not being in control of my own mind; it scared the living shit out of me.

Alot of my family use drugs (including alcohol) and I think that's another reason why they don't appeal to me. I just don't want to end up living a life similar to theirs, they wake up and just take them all day, without them they become aggressive and intolerable.

I also know those that only use them recreationally and seem to get by just fine. Everybody's different but I do think that if they are detrimenting your daily life, or you find yourself craving them when you run out, you should find help so you can atleast have a chance at living a healthy life drug free and to finally be in control without having to rely on external means.