I ended a connection week or two ago. It is getting to the point that I snap and feel suffocated by everyone because of him contacting me
Not stopping to reach out to me.
It is making me have meltdowns and avoid any emotional exchanges. And even non-emotional ones.
I am realizing how rap ey he is and how little respect he ever had for boundaries.
He thinks he is prolonging the final drifting apart by not allowing me space to move on. But all he is doing is planting seeds of hatred and expecting flowers.
It is messed up that now I am looking at him as I would look at a rapist. Not because of him saying anything sexual, but because he won't stop sending me messages and calls and all sorts of ways to pressure me emotionally, using words of endearment and talking about care and love.
I ended it because it was toxic. And I couldn't do it anymore, all the fighting, him never admitting his mistakes, letting me down in so many ways.
Little things becoming bigger because of his giant big selfish ego.
What sort of friendship was that?
He relies on my care to hurt me.
It is making me have meltdowns and avoid any emotional exchanges. And even non-emotional ones.
I am realizing how rap ey he is and how little respect he ever had for boundaries.
He thinks he is prolonging the final drifting apart by not allowing me space to move on. But all he is doing is planting seeds of hatred and expecting flowers.
It is messed up that now I am looking at him as I would look at a rapist. Not because of him saying anything sexual, but because he won't stop sending me messages and calls and all sorts of ways to pressure me emotionally, using words of endearment and talking about care and love.
I ended it because it was toxic. And I couldn't do it anymore, all the fighting, him never admitting his mistakes, letting me down in so many ways.
Little things becoming bigger because of his giant big selfish ego.
What sort of friendship was that?
He relies on my care to hurt me.
