Sometimes I withdraw, feel bitter and resentful towards the world for how it reacts to certain horrors.

And it is well placed. People don't do anything about it when they certainly should and can. Just run their mouths, and some even manage to use horrifying events to self-assure and feel good about themselves.

Learnt helplessness is so annoying.

For people who truly have to deal with PTSD, the trauma isn't just the event itself, it is the surrounding majority indifference, and how the "world keeps turning" as if those lives were nothing.

And you see it happen in real time, as new emerging interdependent experiences and events, not just manifestations of your mental illness. They are reality repeating itself.

And you're alone looking at them as extensions, continuations..

It is next to impossible to embrace illusion and claim it is all in your head. It never stops.

You can numb it.
Or it can force you to be numb at times..but the realization that lives are still wasted for someone's allaho snackbar or someone's gasoline never leaves. Knowing that's all it is worth to humans never leaves you. It stays.

You will at best see crumbs of temporary empathy, and then most people will get on with distractions and the next trendy thing to be offended by.