Ashamed of who I used to be

Has anyone ever experienced this? When I was a teenager I used to be a complete pushover who'd always put others first even when it was a stupid idea or completely unnecessary. I made myself suffer for no reason and was a complete doormat. For years I suffered with issues involving my looks. I saw myself as this ugly, fat disgusting monster.

I just feel so ashamed of what I allowed people to say to me because I had no self esteem or dignity.

Has anyone else went through something similar?

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SW-User

I have, to an extent. The 'me' of a decade ago tried to hide his fear and weakness by being reckless and stupid. Always with a point to prove, but only proving his own frailties.

I don't respect who I was back then. But maybe I had to be him to become who I am now.