question or looking for advice i guess

@thewindupbirdchronicles guess i do

@extradomain13 It just struck me as self-doubts expressed, as why rely upon someone who hurts you? I'd say move on, cultivate what friendships you can, and where you can trust yourself?

@thewindupbirdchronicles what if it is someone from your family

@extradomain13 Mother, sister, brother, father? I don't know if it matters but each comes with their own relationship. Try to be yourself, that you may hold some of their qualities from nurturing, but you are really your own unique person who can be her own person?

@thewindupbirdchronicles but you know, it is really hard to pretend that you are okay, when you really aren't. it is hard when you are the only one who knows that side of the certain person, it is hard when you pull yourself from talking it out cause the truth might hurt a lot of people who is so dear to me.

@extradomain13 I do know that pretending; I sometimes do it now. I think many even as adults do. Whatever hurt you are experiencing, it holds no reflection upon you if someone hurt you.

@thewindupbirdchronicles i know, it is clearly not my fault, those who can laugh with a creaky mask know well, everything, every bit of it,, it''s unfair when you are the one holding on to stuffs that you don't want to look back at. but i guess that's how we move on, not by forgetting, but by remembering it.

@extradomain13 You are growing, remember that. Sometimes you have to remember and forget at the same time is I will put in.