I Never Had a First Kiss

So, I have never had a first kiss let alone a boyfriend. I sometimes really don't know why. I would say that I am not really ugly but at the same time I am not drop-dead gorgeous, modestly speaking, though people I know have called me beautiful before. Still, I don't know; sometimes I feel like a freak of nature since it has happened to almost "every other girl" and the chance seems to skip right over me,Inmy mid-teens, I had a strong feeling that it was going to happen because a guy and I liked each other but were too shy to say it. There were, I believe, a few close calls, but it never happened after all with him. I have read a lot of stories about girls who have had first kisses, and most have said that they are more on the side of horrible and awkward. I wish for my first to be a memorable experience with the right person. I just wish the right person would come right now, though I know that sounds childish. It is something I have literally dreamt of, and I don't know if and when those dreams will become a reality. I don't mean to complain, but I am tired of waiting, honestly. I just want to be taken into a young man's arms and feel desired and wanted, but in a good way, as if I have a life and am seen as beautiful to someone who cares about me as I would about him. I guess I'll have to hope and pray for that time. For those who have not had their first kiss and have waited just about all their teenage years, you're not alone. :)