I Never Had My First Kiss

i might still be young but i never had my first kiss im about to start my senior year and i never had my first kiss, first boyfriend, my first time, first date.... anything that has to do with dating.... ive kssed my cousin but i dont count it because its not with someone who i know i can count on, will be really close with, and so much more.... but the fact that i never had a REAL first kiss... i feel like no one has ever wanted to give me a chance.... and everytime someone asks me about my first anything.... i feel embarressed