I am a virgin and don’t want penetrative sex

And even want to remain a technical virgin even until after marriage. I think anal sexy is painful and disgusting. Oral sex is just gross. And I fear vaginal sex will just be painful and uncomfortable. I just wonder why anyone would stick up anything really thick and big up their butts and rectums when the whole is so tight and easily teared. And don’t even get me started on extreme sex practices like fisting. A penis is too big why would someone put a fist and risk hurting themselves. Fists don’t belong in vaginas and cervixes. I am against extreme sexual practices and am very vanilla when it comes to sexual activity.