I’m fkn destroying myself for people who don’t even care about me.

In my whole life, I don’t think anyone aside from my Mama (rip 🖤) has ever really cared about me. But my sensitivity bothered her too. It bothers everyone when you have genuine feelings. They want you to nurture and provide without imperfections, without tiring.

I’m so tired I think of dying 😆 therefore, since no one can use me rn, I’m worthless 😂

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Lostpoet · M

From Lady Lazarus ~Sylvia Plath

Dying
Is an art, like everything else.
I do it exceptionally well.

I do it so it feels like hell.
I do it so it feels real.
I guess you could say I've a call.

It's easy enough to do it in a cell.
It's easy enough to do it and stay put.
It's the theatrical

Comeback in broad day
To the same place, the same face, the same brute
Amused shout:

'A miracle!'
That knocks me out.
There is a charge

For the eyeing of my scars, there is a charge
For the hearing of my heart—
It really goes.

And there is a charge, a very large charge
For a word or a touch
Or a bit of blood

Or a piece of my hair or my clothes.
So, so, Herr Doktor.
So, Herr Enemy.

I am your opus,
I am your valuable,
The pure gold baby

Lostpoet · M

Make them know that your love isn't free and it's not unconditional.

RebelFox · 36-40, F

@Lostpoet I don’t care anymore. I want my love to be free and unconditional and for someone to love me back similarly otherwise I don’t care. I can’t tell people, nobody cares. They’ll just leave. And that’s not really my style. I’d rather just seclude myself and force it to be over:

Unlearn · 41-45, M

Maybe you're looking for the right things at wrong places...

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SW-User

Take care of yourself. <3

SledgeHammer · 46-50, M

🙆‍♂️

iamonfire696 · 41-45, F

I am sorry you feel this way 💗

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