Does this implore you to do something like this or more I am not it is up to you

I got scared on accident because I wasn't wanting to play any upper advantage point games like if I lose I die the hostile lives if I win I live the hostile dies, I ran through some stuff like not getting what I want with women and me accidentally running into a scary big older than me kid and telling me he will beat me up if I do it again and it was only an accident and I didn't say anything on accident. I got a metal stud that was like 5in 1/2in long, 1/2lb, sharp small metal tip, and I aimed it at the cop's face from 7ft away and it missed him and didn't damage anything in the home much, there were 3 cops that I could have hit and it didn't hit them at all and then I punched the cop 3 times, kinda hard, and he didn't get a bloody nose and I punched 1 other cop 1 time kinda hard in the head and then I punched another 1 cop kinda hard in the head, none ever said they got concussions, my fines were accidental because I believe that the only game that means anything now is the game where if I lose I die from a trap door and the hostile doesn't, if I win I don't die from the trap door, the hostile dies from the trap door. And I stole and broke 2500 dollars worth of stuff. I got penalties and they were a class c felony and medication for life on invega paliperidone pulmitate and I lost my sword and gun rights because I am incompetent of my crimes. I am 27 yrs old. I need your help an I want you to report this to the law to get me out of it.