Still can't believe I was so belittled by a girl I met here

She didn't think anything of me probably, she probably thought I was a joke, just a loser man. She made me feel like that for a long time even though I believe I was the coolest kid in highschool and a people's champ at one point. Idk why I want her in my life, I talk about her all the time here if u don't know. Can't believe I was so belittled ?
All I wanted was love I guess that backfired from the start lol. I can't believe I was so belittled for so long. Fuck that bitc