I Am Single
Until about two years ago, I hated it. It used to burn me up. Seeing all these people have someone else that cares for them in a romantic way. The hand holding, hugging, kissing, adorable talk. I always envied how I could never seem to have that. (The next paragraph is kind of me just whining. Skip it if you please, as the end is what's all that matters.)
About ten years ago, I met and eventually became really good friends with a girl. As you can probably figure out, I had a crush on her for a good seven or so years. I worked up the courage to ask her out, but kind of got rejected in an awkward way. I was pretty sad about it for like a day, but I got over it. Anyways, those feelings I had for her eventually wore off, and we're still good friends. I entered my first and only relationship so far about two and a half years ago when I was 19. Unfortunately, it only lasted for three months (and it was all online). That left me really upset as I felt I just had no experience with relationships so I would never be able to maintain one, let alone ever get into another one.
Nowadays, I realize stuff like that shouldn't even matter. I don't worry about relationships anymore, and I'm not actively seeking a girlfriend. If anything, what I really need are close friends that I can see in person more than anything else. I'm single and I'll enjoy it for as long as it lasts. If that ends up being the rest of my life, then so be it. :]
About ten years ago, I met and eventually became really good friends with a girl. As you can probably figure out, I had a crush on her for a good seven or so years. I worked up the courage to ask her out, but kind of got rejected in an awkward way. I was pretty sad about it for like a day, but I got over it. Anyways, those feelings I had for her eventually wore off, and we're still good friends. I entered my first and only relationship so far about two and a half years ago when I was 19. Unfortunately, it only lasted for three months (and it was all online). That left me really upset as I felt I just had no experience with relationships so I would never be able to maintain one, let alone ever get into another one.
Nowadays, I realize stuff like that shouldn't even matter. I don't worry about relationships anymore, and I'm not actively seeking a girlfriend. If anything, what I really need are close friends that I can see in person more than anything else. I'm single and I'll enjoy it for as long as it lasts. If that ends up being the rest of my life, then so be it. :]
26-30, M
