If i was thin and beautiful maybe then id finally have someone.

Remember.... God says you are something. The Bible says you are God's crown creation and that makes you very special. He does have good plans for you. Maybe you could meet somebody in church, as well as get some good spiritual guidance. The Holy Spirit always brings joy, comfort, peace, and great guidance.
And you'll meet some very sweet friends who will accept you as you are. I know I complain, but in my heart, I know that God could still send someone for me. I believe that with all my heart, but at the same time, I see a few reasons why I'm not with someone right now, as I have chosen to dedicate my life in other areas and am purely happy and satisfied with that. If I meet someone along the way, that would be good and I could accept that, but right now I have many things I want to do for the Lord. Nothing is impossible with the Lord.

I have had a couple companions in the past. They just didn't work out for me. Not what I was looking for. They were controlling. So it's not impossible, friend. Keep believing and tell the Lord what you're looking for and leave the rest to Him. You are young and I truly believe that God will send someone for you. I'll keep you in my prayers.