I Am Single

Giving serious thought to going it alone til the end of my days. Solitude has become all too familiar, a lifelong companion even. It has never disappointed nor has it betrayed my trust. I think we convince ourselves at an early age that in order to live a joyous fulfilling life, we require companionship whether that be romantic or platonic. We're influenced by media, by the books that we read and the shows that we watch, that in the end there is always a happy ending. The boy gets the girl of his dreams. We're so deluded in these fantasies that we cannot see the world for what it really is or rather we refuse to accept it. But too often have I put my faith in someone and relinquish rational thought in order to attain a sense of wonder and belonging. A sense of euphoria that can only be achieved through intense, deep union with a kindred soul. Rational thought forbids this surrending of ones self. Because the rational self recalls your history, it senses the approaching danger and safeguards you're already delicate ego. It's the rational thought that coerces one into detaching from the metaphysical, the emotional, and the spiritual entities. It is a shepherd of sorts protecting us from falling into the clutches of self inflicted delusions. Because let's face it, too often have we dropped our defenses and let love in only to be ravaged and pillaged for all our worth. We come to realize the mysterious stranger in our midst is nothing more than a bandit incognito armed with a silver tongue and bewitching looks. It is then after our inevitable defeat and humiliation we construct impenetrable walls so that we may never suffer the indignity again. With each barrage we build our fortresses ever stronger, ever taller until it becomes strenuous to decipher friend from foe. We become imprisoned in a self fabricated cage of solitude in disguise, unaware that it is a prison.