I have been almost there a lot.

Pay attention to your patterns. The way you learned to survive may not be the way you want to continue to live. Heal and shift.

I have never been in a relationship, I have seen people around me going in and out of them often,but my heart has been broken more times than I can even remember. I learned the hard way not to push or force anything. Even when I feel like I am almost there, it turns out that's how far I'll ever get. Each time that happens it almost feels like I lose a bit of my sanity while trying to endure the pain and disappointment. But the truth is that it not about them, it about me, and how all these experiences are affecting me, I care too much about my stability to lose my mind over something like this. I want change, I want to be all I need, but that's easier said than done.