does anyone else feel weird grocery shopping for yourself

for the 17 years i've lived in this flat, i have grocery shopped for myself as i live alone, have no partner or support system apart from my mother and father who live far away......the supermarket is just across the road...i usually buy lots of groceries for the week when i go....but i also feel self conscious about it...thinking people who see me and know my face are scrutinizing me or observing me.....they possibly think, there's that lonely guy again shopping for himself......to a degree i worry what people think....and all this makes me feel 'weird'.

i don't want people to know my business as it's none of their business....i am a loner at heart and go it alone...i do hope to reestablish new friends at some point and even a partner, but don't hold my breath.

i also wonder if people feel sorry for me as i have mental problems and at times struggle with my conduct/composure...and again, i don't want anyone's sympathy.

anyway, what do you think about all this?

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Isthisit · F Best Comment

I suffer from severe social anxiety and can really relate to your feelings of feeling weird,self conscious, and scrutinized by others. Can also relate about not wanting people to know my business and wondering if people feel sorry for me.
I think the best we can do is try convince ourselves that what were thinking isnt true.... other people dont think of us at all really, everyones too busy wrapped up in their own lives.
Paranoia is a tough thing to deal with.

Jungleman · M

@Isthisit thanks, it is tough...but i get through it, i thought you wrote a lot of sense, something i need to always remember in those challenging times.

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