Functioning

Having to function in this world by myself with Autism is hard harder than the average person there's certain social cues I don't get but I am good at masking blending in like smooth chocolate but it's draining.
I've met so many horrible people in this world no one treats you better because your autistic if anything they will treat you like your dumb. I'm 21 but I'm already done with friendship I've had so many friends use me for my money friends that stole from me it's the same people with different faces I tend to attract users as my kindness and naivety fills a hole in those who seek it.

My one and only friend L is first friend I've ever had that hasn't used me and taught me about give and take and you know what I like it👍 I'm okay with not having anymore friends I'm okay with others judging me I'm okay with not going out and seeing the world I mean what does it matter anyways why spend money be in crouded places just to see something I can get a 360 view on YouTube for.
Being a woman is hard your targeted alot and put down by other women I don't care about brands designers or even looking my best other girls are obsessed with social media validation praise everybody wants to be that "b!tech" and I just want to be me was born in the wrong era probably...