Instinctively taking care of others

None the less the past all the pain been done throughout my life to me,
Why do i not see past the need and urge to help those i think are in need ?

Even while my own health is mentally bleeding of trauma, pain, regret, distrust and more.
Somehow i can't escape my self giving the care and the means to others to recieve my support.


Is it my souls purpose ?
Is it cause of what i have seen and react on that to somehow justify my regrets and self blame ?
Anything else ?

What ever it is i hope it won't prove to be my downfall in the end.....
The tought crosses my mind a lot: "its the task given to me and my destinty to help none the less if it would become downfall should not matter"

Weirdly enough ..... thats all i can think off .....