I Think Too Much

I seem to over analyze situations. Things that really are not a big deal to other people but are in my mind. Like when I felt like one of my guy friends had a crush on me, I was getting really worried because I didn't feel the same way and I didn't know how to handle the situation. Other people would just simply say to tell him you just want to be friends and problem solved but I kept thinking unbelievable scenarios like him crying with tears running down like a waterfall or holding me at gunpoint until I go out with him! Ok...maybe that one is a bit extreme but in my defense, I'm sure that's happened before on the news. But I realize when I think too much, it stops me from truly living and following my instincts. That will be a new years resolution for me- to live and not think so hard all the time. To do what I feel is right like applying for scholarships even though the chances of winning is like winning the lottery. Or asking friends that I haven't spoken to in a while to hang out without worrying about why I would randomly ask. I think my biggest fear is just embarrassing myself because when I do, I let it get to me and it ruins my day. But the way I see it, we all walk through life with innocence. No one knows what's coming next. So for now, I will just go where the wind blows me.